So, since the last time I posted I have been recovering and fielding life changes and figuring out who I am going to be going forward. It was very weird to realize that I don't remember who I was before the bouts of depression started. But now I am doing well enough to move home and to start weaning me off one of my meds.
I am also starting another journey: weight loss. Just a little background: I went from being a huge baby to being a skinny little kid to being a fat 8 year old and I have basically been fat ever since. I cleared 180 at age 12. I cleared 300 at age 15. Let's just say that I am a great deal heavier than even that now.
Up until my sweet stillborn baby Susannah was born I had virtually no health problems. I had allergies which occasionally kicked up my asthma, but that was it. Then my angel was born and my system started going wonky. Then three months later I got pregnant with my youngest and by the end of that pregnancy I had problems. I had high BP for the first time. The rheumatoid arthritis we were all just waiting for me to develop reared its ugly head. I was tired and in pain and depressed.
Fast forward to now and I am finally tired and in pain but not depressed. SO, I am doing what I did the last time I was concerned about my weight and not depressed; I'm doing Weight Watchers. I lost 65 pounds on it some 8 years ago and I intend to be a great deal more successful this time.
Please pray for me. My sanity is still not solid and dependable but I am really doing so much better. We are also dealing with life changing events (loss of one job, hours cut in the other and an impending move) so I will need to lean on the arms of Him who is all strength.
God Bless all who read this.
